Current mood: sleepy
so i've been told i make people think and have a way with words that isn't afraid to speak my mind. then they get angry at me. not because i told them what i think but because of w/e they start to think. like some people are scared or pissed at the thoughts they get. i don't understand it. i think this is why i nver hav like deep convos with too many people, its like hit on a subject, some comment as to why i'm stupid, awkward silence. i hate it cus then like a day later we're back to being cool and its like nuthing ever got said. its so easy to just forget and put things on the backburn in our minds but why. if u have a problem it will never get better until u come up with a course of action and fix it. things don't go away and will fuck with ur head even when u trick urself into believing they won't. talk or write or do sumthign to organize ur mind and put things into perspective. if u come to a conclusion that is "bad" or unpopular to ur regular way of thinking then explore how u got there and stop lying to urself about the person u really are. the whole reason people are regarded as fake is because they just can't find comfort in all the wrongs and rights that make them up. also, its not beyond dignity if u find someone to help u with things too. not always is ur mind in the right state to handle seemingly everything that falls into ur lap at the same time. life dosn't hav to be overwhelming nor do u hav to think of urself as some mystery that dosn't matter in the intricate webbing of it all. take everything in stride and realize there are more positive u can pull out of the absolute worst situations imaginable.
fyi i'm a listener and advice giver, i luv to influence minds in resolving issues and hopefully provide insight so if u think ur in a super fucked up place despite the whole "crazy nick" thing i've got workin for me i find myself able to get people happier wether they want to be or not.
