Monday, July 30, 2007

[30] 2 Players 4 The Price Of 1

2 Players 4 the Price of 1
Note: if you don't have the time to read it, por favor come back later.

This is the guy I email a lot of my questions and thoughts too and the first part of this is his blog. In it her refers to me and one of our talks and i just see this back and forth as really significant in the fine tune defining of why i think the things i do and say the things i say. I know its long so sue me but you should've known that before you clicked. If you have any input to anything he says or my responses i'm telling you I live for comments and the guy says he loves questions.
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him: I just finished MacArthur's "Hard To Believe". It's a Hard to Read book. It's been awhile since I picked up something that hurt good. It's a good feeling. Kinda tickles.

Also I've added a link to M'Cheyne's Daily Bible Readings to the list on the right. If you click it, it takes you to today's selections. If you're not familiar with how M'Cheyne's works, the ones labeled "Family" are to be read by the husband to the family, and the ones labeled "Secret" are read individually. If you decide to start this, pick a time and regularly get everybody prepared to read the word, every night, at that time.

So now it's time for me to start the next book in this fat stack sitting on my dresser, which is "A Christian Manifesto". From
Hermano Urn's report of the book it should shake me up a little. Good eatin.

I'm noticing more that most people who bear the title Christian aren't living up to their descriptions. There is a numbing sea of apathy amongst American Christians that is as far as the eye can see. I'm disturbed by the lack of ambition toward improving spiritual life and there are a huge amount of people who are content to just bench warm at church. I may have said this on here already, I can't remember.

"Hard to Believe" hit on this fact pretty heavily. He doesn't waste any time getting to the point of saying that he doesn't make any assumptions about peoples' salvation. Never assume that a person who says they're saved really is.

I guess the way to describe how we should be towards people like this is to be what I could call "fire tenders". We should be working on stirring people up and keep them hot so they don't fall out and cool off. Instead, a lot of people are practicing a form of spiritual isolationism, forgoing fellowship in favor of treating church like a roll call is being taken. Blah.

In other news, I'm in contact with a young man who started off coming across as a quasi-atheist with some questions about the Bible. After a late-night visit to his blog I've noticed that he's more or less calling down anathema against everything God-related. I almost--ALMOST--left a comment... but chose not to because his commenting reader base seems to support this view and it's not my intent to make him look like a twit in front of his friends. One of the views is that the Bible shouldn't be trusted because if even one contradiction shows up, the whole thing is trash. I told him that if the Bible has been around this long after being attacked the same way for hundreds of years, it's probably pretty stable if people are still trusting in it. So he points me to the verses Deuteronomy 27:22 and Genesis 20:11-12. To save some time, here they are:

Deut 27:22 Cursed be anyone who lies with his sister, whether the daughter of his father or the daughter of his mother.' And all the people shall say, 'Amen'

Gen 20:11-12 11 Abraham said, "I did it because I thought, There is no fear of God at all in this place, and they will kill me because of my wife. 12 Besides, she is indeed my sister, the daughter of my father though not the daughter of my mother, and she became my wife.

He didn't even quote the verses themselves, just the references. I'm assuming he thinks there's a contradiction here because a rule instated in Deuteronomy appears to have been broken with God's sanction before it had even been invented... It would be like being arrested for selling whiskey 20 years before the Prohibition.

In a way, I'm thankful that people like him and the American Atheists organization exist. They have a tendency of shaking the fakers off that don't have true faith. I don't have a problem saying the Bible is true because there's some kind of God-given information inside me that I can't trace logically and can't just tell anybody about either. It's just THERE. I can't deny it, and I'd be a fool if I did after seeing what all He's done in my life.

Also, I've been pressed lately on the topic of Christian persecution. I don't know why. I read these stories about how Christians were killed for their beliefs and I wonder, what would I do if that started happening here? It's a distasteful thing to think about but it's a possibility. What would you do if someone held a gun to your child's head and threatened to shoot if you didn't recant your beliefs? This BUGS me. Not because of the situation but because I honestly don't know what I'd do. Even Peter denied Christ 3 times in a pretty short time span and he was RIGHT THERE with Him.

Today's Prayer:
Lord... there is a ruckus coming and I can feel it. I would ask that you watch over all of us who truly pursue the faith and strive to live for Your glory. It's a hard road, which is to be expected. We have no idea what in particular is on this road, but You do. It's one thing to say that we're ready and another to actually believe it. I don't know where I'm at on this, but I know that You have the power to strengthen us for what's ahead. I'm asking now Lord, that You please give us that thousand-yard stare that goes along with focusing on the eternal things so that the quick lives we live here aren't what we focus on. In Jesus' name, Amen.


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Me: I got those, i sent a long email before i brought up the contradiction idea though. i trashed it so if u didn't get it or deleted it then ya....

I really don't want to be considered anything. "Quasi-Atheist" "Christian" or otherwise. Any definition implies that you know the answers or assume you know the answers. Not my style.

More than contradictions I'm finding as significant or the ways by which the bible has become the book we know today. I suggest you read "Misquoting Jesus" and "Letter to a Christian Nation" if you haven't

I read your blogs and the fact of the matter is anything you call "God's beauty, plan, part of his design" is all justified by the same reasoning of assumption that those who claim the same things to be unorganized or coincidental.

The problem with Christianity for me is the same problem with every religion. It provides one path, all the rules, right or wrong their assumed right simply because. Faith in anything by definition is blind, and on any level of that which you cannot see (in every sense/definition/perception of the "see") you can't make claims.

I just really don't get how people justify themselves when they stay in the dark about the things factually eating away at their beliefs. I read that the the Gods of olympus were created when the elite smart ones of the time fully realized how meaningless and sheer pointless their lives were without something else pulling the strings. and when i look around and here what people then said and though, and how people now speak and think, it all just seems like one endless cycle of repetition. No one solves anything. No one changes, they all dive into a facet of their insecurities that keeps them in fear.

I try to empathize. I put myself into situations and try to play out in my head what i would be thinking at the time. I know what it feels like to be the happiest, more beyond depressed, perverted, goofy, helpful, hateful person and in the end they all play out to this static being that just is. Nothing provides enlightenment but me and what i can make myself believe. And knowing this i have a hard time and outright don't believe people that say they are so caught up in what they don't know and can't define as the one true path to their salvation. Simple human curiosity would drive one mad if they couldn't settle on something, personally contending with all too often.

Like i've said before, information is exponentially compounding. there's no more probable a time that they dig up Jesus than today. And what then? (outlandish but u get what i'm getting at)

The more i think the less sense of self I have as well. what is anyone but a reflection? i don't even trust my likes and dislikes anymore. I know it sounds stupid. Do i have friends or people i use as a means to kill time? do i like all the expensive crap i have or did i just have money to blow explaining why i never use or think about it all.  The only reason I'm finding for living is because its the in thing to do. And what better place than to grab a "convert" than in a vulnerable place like that in their mind. Promises of love and bliss and all you have to do is renounce your current state of confused thought. Christianity comes off as just a refined cult with better punch.

I find myself more often forgiving and forgetting (more often forgetting) people who "sin" what have you against me. It just seems insignificant. I simply can't blame them for living, i don't know their background, and frankly i don't give a crap what they have to say to the same extent that they care to listen to me. then i think, if i can so easily brush life's b/s, be chill during times of drama and duress, and play the role of happy go lucky therapist friend to the people i know, after becoming "self absorbed" and thoughtful why are the members of so many religions having such a hard time to exhibit the same traits?

i said it in my 2nd most recent blog. (been writing a lot lately) people are afraid of themselves. They don't want to think about what it would be like to be on the brink of suicide or murder and not be able to stop. they don't want to think about the taboo and weird. But i do and have. And after this mental acid trip i get to form strong routed opinions about those people and why their actions were justified by them in their own right. Then people all want to point fingers and blame. They want to asses punishment and find out who's responsible. And the laundry list of who influenced what and who said this and urged that could go all the way back till you could try and blame God. And because of that fact, because no one wants to worry about themselves and find that balance in their own mind that allows them to explore and quell the urge to know, everyone is responsible for everything. The phrase "born into sin" came just came into my mind. I guess i have the backward method of understanding why the bible says what it says. I don't read verse and believe it because its there. I live through something and recall a line a heard and can now see why whoever put it there new it would be key in the effort to persuade and convert. All the reasoning behind it was already thought about, magnified, and worked into something you avert to without ever having to really think about it before its used in an argument. And i'm what? some 18 year old kid? not a scholar or great thinker with some agenda. And in some sense, its a "simple" enough process for me.

I'll never be able to throw out the view I have now that provides, as hard as it may be to believe, so much more for the whole and not just the select. I'm aware that I may come off as uniformed or confusing sometimes and probably won't be completely understood unless you read some of the same things i have.

And yep, you got me on the contradiction thing which i'm happy about. Now i have one less opportunity to sound ignorant. I guess you can try to clear up the discrepancies in the gospels for me too if you want lol.

You can comment or respond to anything I say with anything and everything you want. You can spend your life pointing out this and that and explaining your views going blue in the face as they lower your coffin. Its all i ask of anyone who calls themselves alive and human. My friends arn't concerned about me looking stupid or twitish nor am I. I just think about you though, lighting the fire, being like those speed driven pastors of the mega evangelical churches. All the time and effort, the reasoning and stress, happiness and heartache. What will it matter to you when you get to heaven? Are you going to care about the ones you tried to help that are now the beloved burning sufferers. God's going to take away any grief or guilt you could have isn't he? He'll make you forget you ever new those people, friends or family that just didn't make the cut. So what's it matter? But of course its not your place to think about such things right?

Just as no one can say anything about you or me without being one of us, no one can truly say anything about God and his "plan." You agreed people can't trust themselves and be a gauge on their views and beliefs. People can barely if even grasp themselves, but their ready to tackle God.

Also note, i'm pretty specific in my words. I didn't say the bible was trash if a contradiction showed up. I said something claiming to be perfect is invalidated of that perfection fact in such a case. I also tend to read that way and the last few lines of your paragraph in response to me I hope are a generalization about the instance and not exactly how they come across.

If you truly believe the Lord blesses those who truly pursue their faith then to you i would think I'm viewed with Jesus in my back pocket. I can't believe that something like life isn't significant. Isn't valid of focus. Its in this life you get to "praise his name, spread the word, and show the love" and that dosn't matter? If its nothing more than a blip in time....I can't even find the words to describe the level of absolute pointlessness for existence I'm vibing if those were views I so strongly held. And yet you say and pray it so easily? I really don't get it.

If it were my kid with the gun to its head, renounce or else you know what i'd be thinking? Why the hell does this guy even care? He made the trip over here. He took his faith and allowed it to get him pissed off and power hungry. He's so blind to what's actually happening he has a gun to my kids head. He knows the power of fear. He knows because he's so completely entangled with it. He thinks he's God, the version he relates to at least. Life is in his hands and he wants to make it my burden to save it. And for what? words? lies? he wants a lie or the satisfaction of winning? Pull it. Either way nothing is won or really lost. Especially if your a Christian right? Your sure your child is in heaven laughing up just waiting for you. What's so scary? This life isn't important.