You
want a pissed off blog that has nothing to do with girl problems,
here you go. I'm watching this Evangelical thing on Hbo where all
this brainwashing crap is telling people that evolution does not
exist. All of a sudden because someone accepts Christ they can
justify not thinking for themselves. What the hell does an erected
bone structure of T-Rex mean to you? Your happy and don't fear death
and all your dancing and singing means that you're A ok. I want to
point a gun at some young kids head right at that moment and have hin
laugh in my face to prove it. I swear these people kill me, the ideal
behind Christianity is great, all of it makes sense, everyone happy
and loving and yada yada you get the point. Unfortunately, these
people want to take parts of the bible, they want to twist phrases
and create all the "Christian" events and simply because
they put that title before it its holy and powerful.
I like what Bill
Maher said, "God doesn't write books, I want to give him more
credit." I wonder about people and their interactions. Mega
churches and scripture beaten into people really scare me with how
quickly things could turn wrong with the "right" types of
preachers. It feels like I'm watching a cult, and I seriously doubt
that's how God wants to convey His "message." People need
to feel accepted and it feels like they either wear Abercrombie,
pierce their cocks, or become Christian. Are they hungry for God or
hungry for excuses and a need to feel secure about their
opinions. If they can even call them their opinions. Its so easy to
get wrapped up in a shroud. What kills me, what I simply cannot put
out of my head is this. All my thinking and headaches and seemingly
random crap that goes through my head. All my years of not being
religious or faithfully calling myself a Christian.
I came to these
conclusions about life and human interaction and faith and all this
other crap that no one seems to want to take the time to really think
about, and I did it without once cracking a bible. Movies, quotes,
people have opened my eyes to views and ideas that perfectly in line
with the Christian ideal. Basic crap about human nature, listening to
your conscious, the definition of morals. I could argue that the
bible is sometimes used as a crutch for the weak mind. People would
tell me its God speaking through me and he made me think those things
or what have you. If you say that then your just as ready to take the
devil as a scapegoat when you mess up. People lose their sense of
responsibility and shame because one Sunday they danced and sang
after they fucked their dog and now its all ok. I hear someone saying
on this show "you're a big time loser if you don't believe in
Jesus" where was this guy when the passage "judge ye lest
not be judged" passage was said.
Put a handful of these wonder
bread hicks in Merrillville and lets see how Godly they are to the
black kids walking around. Do these people look at their lives
critically and cynically ever? Bush is one of those awesome
Christians right? Nuff said and great job there. You can believe in
marriage, great, ok good not to have abortions. Ask one of these
people what happens when some 14 girl gets knocked up by her dad. A
plan for that baby, girl, and family. Who says that just because you
believe in gay marriage or rights and
life means you're contradictory? How many crack babies have you
adopted
today? Definitely not a Christian commercial there right. The
proliferation of happiness and love, be it with some homos or not, is
not the damnation of life. Who the hell made that true? I can believe
in Jesus, repent, actively seek and find apparently, but I don't know
if these people are seeking or being herded. Fucking Republicans, God
forbid you have "good Christian values" and bad ideas.
These churches teach you to judge. When they "educate" kids
you can see it in their little faces the lack of thought or reasoning
they have as to why they said that. They scroll through the list of
words and passages from mommy and daddy gave them and recite it back
for a cookie. I'm tired of the "everything is alright"
mentality in the name of Christ to un or partially informed
"Christians." And wasn't some prominent "Christian"
leader of this mega church a fag? You know maybe my situation is one
giant message from God because if Dream Girl started acting like
these people, mind you I don't see it happening but I'm no future
teller, then ya……I hate this all, I hate that these people join a
church or faith that says
one thing and means
so much more. It's mob mentality.
This gay guy I watch crying
in this pew, going to this church where he's not accepted is more
real and closer to God to me then this fat old guy standing up on his
pew looking so satisfied and content in his prowess centered on hate.
Open your arms and close your eyes and the war in Iraq will stop uh
huh.. Listen to a Christian rock band and you'll hear God. God
doesn't like tattoos one place will preach and then another "church"
is formed by people with full bodied tats that express their love.
And people wonder why I have a cynical view on things. Would people
that followed Hitler say he was on a power trip? Its
not about
the ideas behind the power trip, its
not about
the message, it's about the actual
situation.
Who says that some preacher who's "faith" is sooo strong is
nothing more than a man who likes power. He likes seeing hands wave
and people jump when he screams Jesus. No one knows, everyone
believes. It says we're suppose to read the bible in order to know
God. It doesn't say we will
know Him it just says that's the method.
God is over our heads like a
complicated joke. He doesn't say you can't be educated and fight the
doubt in your mind with logic and hardship in order to find the right
path and strengthen your faith. If anything I think massively
believing one thing and constantly having people barrage you with the
"right" path will send you farther from where you need to
be, than if you were to live as a regular "sinner." I don't
advocate bad things and hateful thinking and all the other crap, but
I do promote knowledge and experience and reasoning. God created
those things, the devil manipulated them. That doesn't mean they are
inherently wrong and that when you think something or partake in some
"ungodly" act that the message God wants to send to you is
any less powerful than when pastor Bob yelled it at church. Ya but
what do I know right, I'm some lost soul to an extremist Evangelical.
I have nothing valid to say if I don't quote it from the bible first.
My interpretation of life means nothing to anybody right. So stupid
and closed
minded these
people are I can't even rant about it any longer.
Side
note a few hours later.....Craig Ferguson talked about being an alcoholic and how to deal with his problem by talking with people who
shared his views, thoughts, or paralleled his life. I advocate this
process over just about everything. Its how I learn, its why I think
so much, its how you solve unresolvable problems, its a way to be
really connected and share more than just time with someone.
Coincidence that Jesus did the same thing? You want to hoot and
holler about your Christianity then great, but don't act like
their arn't other ways for finding direction than to be beaten over
the head with a bible and locked within the confines of a judgemental
faction that thinks for you.
