[Disclaimer] While I still think of it as an awesome movie, much of the language and conclusions I write below are not how I've come to understand things or believe. I leave these up as evidence that I used to think like this and change is possible and preferable.
Current mood: epifanized
Current mood: epifanized
I live for moments
like this. One's where your eyes are opened to old ideas newly
revived in young minds. I just saw this movie called Waking Life and
I'm so in awe of what was discussed my heart is aching. The perfect
mesh between "logic" and theology. God is always speaking
to you. Right now, at this very second, when things are. Paralleling
your life to a dream is ingenious. How free and surreal and perfect
when your lost in your head. The closest one can get while they are
alive. Alive. A word that has begun to lose all its meaning. The
moments where people aren't acting from a script but take part in
"holy moments." Ones where its actual people and
personalities and recognizing the moment. Acknowledging the spirit
that drives you to questions. I know now more than every why love is
so important. Why I call what I feel for Dream Girl love. They are
true. Moments when you can't become yourself anymore than when your
with that person. Moments that connect you with what God wants you to
feel. What's to show you to keep you out of the "real"
world and realize you need and want to accept the dream. Such a
powerful message. The movie talks about history and the eerie
connections between what was "then" and "now" and
how people do and say and repeat over and over and can't or won't
face the reasoning as to why. No one is going to explain all this all
better than the movie so again WAKING LIFE see it, think about it,
question life and your role in it. People should not fear death. If
you need a better way to understand eternity there is no better than
to look at the hours of dream u had and the one minute of sleep that
was involved. We are manifestations of someone else's dream. And to
become self aware is to walk in to light. If you ever feel depressed
or worthless or alone then all you've done is allowed societies
restrictions be imposed on you. When you start to live your life like
it's a dream, for the moment, doing anything and everything you want,
experiencing and cherishing what true people have to offer, there is
no greater happiness. I'm just so literally blown away right now I
don't even know how to think. All the thinking I do has all been
striving towards understanding what this movie hit on and its like my
mind has transcended. Christians keep doing what your doing, trust
and believe in the bible, but I think there's a lot more to it and
all the answers aren't wrapped up in nice bible verse packages. They
preach the ideal but could never have hit me so hard w/o all the
thought and reason that was poured into understanding faith and
transient beings as much as this film. For all those who care, yes
from this point on I can faithfully call myself a Christian, but I
want to go so so sooo much farther with that. I respect Tapper and
Nicole with how they explain and propose but they want to leave all
the thinking up to the bible and that doesn't work for me. And now I
can feel comfortable knowing that that isn't a bad thing. Please for
the love of God if you read this strive to find yourself and look for
times when your chest aches and your eyes water because of how real
they feel. Don't be down or lazy about the right now. All the waiting
for the future and grasping for past happiness…..you'd be more
alive if you were dead. I'm not saying go kill yourself by any means,
but the term "walking in the light" takes on a whole new
meaning or hell the old meaning with new perspective. My faith
wavered, I didn't know fully if I could let go or believe and trust
in something else. Stupid thoughts encouraged by depression and
sadness kick in and all the "what's the points" and "who
cares" really seem to set it. But now its like, if I'm this
worthless nothing human being with pipe dreams, love issues, and
other things exponentially insignificant and my life can feel "sooo
bad" why does everyone go through it, through all points in
history, every minute of every day. Everyone is connected by
something they can't shake. This mass almost telekinetic power that
inscribes our genetic code that compels us to act a certain way. Life
with all its "problems" so specific and magnified to one
important lesson that can be learned from every bad situation. If
your desperate and reaching for a sign look no further than to how
people resolve/d problems. This, explained better in the movie again,
is like with movies and how they can capture those moments that can't
really be relived….those personalities at that moment. Find the
right now happiness, see what questions the universe is asking you,
live your dreams. I can't think of anything better you can learn.
