Are
all what I failed miserably at explaining how I originally wanted
when I started this....o well you can still read it anyway I guess.
So
I think I finally came about the best word to describe a "religion"
that would fit me. Gnostic. Basically just one who believes in
knowledge and gaining understanding. Not being about judging the
experiences as right or wrong, just working with the information at
hand "in the now" as 60's cliché as that may sound. I
can't tell you how true seek and you shall find can influence your
life. Literally within the past 24 hours I've heard all this
information about unpublished books of the bible, theories about
quantum physics, and ways to manifest desires. What truly makes this
stuff so interesting to me is that at the extreme ends of science and
the basic principles of religion all push towards the same ideas. I
suggest reading anything by Deepak Chopra and watching the religion
specials on the History channel. People need to find how to get into
the unconscious gap where your actions aren't expressions of fear. If
your afraid of your thoughts and hide behind preconceptions instead
of trying to understand yourself, then your missing out on what you
have to offer yourself and the world. I was listening to a tape on
the nature of coincidence. Things so mathematically impossible that
to consider them insignificant is simply tragic. Some intelligent
design seemingly orchestrating your personal interactions and
direction you go in life. Think about the millionaires who always
knew
they were going to be millionaires and never had an ounce of doubt
they couldn't make it. Or adventurers who travel all over the world,
most dangerous places imaginable and know
they aren't going to get hurt or will find something amazing. I mean
déjà vu, seeing your future, speaking in sink with your best
friend…All are blips of evidence that something is all knowing and
conscious propelling are perception of reality. I really feel like a
retard trying to recite back in Spanish what I heard from a Hindi
scholar, but I still want whoever cares to read get a perception of
me and hopefully understand why I do, say, and think the things I do.
One I think I easily enough remember Chopra said is that he knows and
lives his purpose in life. And when he said he was hear to inform and
spread joy and happiness to those around him I kinda felt as though I
related to him. I want people to know things and understand their
lives. I'd love to love when the opportunities present themselves, if
in fact the opportunities ever go away in the first place. Or be able
to stop the automatic judge button that gets pressed when you meet
someone. I don't think being caring or nice to people when you
consider yourself an asshole to be necessarily acting fake as much as
a lack of understanding about yourself. If you allow yourself to get
stressed about your "faith" or problems past and future you
can't control your ignoring yourself now. I'm getting distracted and
losing where I was originally going with this so if you actually care
that much I'll suggest books and tapes and indulge in deep
stimulating conversations that are fun for the whole family….
Random
thought: All the pictures of saints and apostles and religious folks
out that and none of them are wearing crosses around their necks?
